GRATITUDE: The smile that creeped across my face after the grimace when I realized I cracked my egg yolk when I discovered it made a perfect heart for me. An almost 4 mile walk with Erin whose turn it was to shed the weight of carrying everything for her family and all the newly arising issues around the boys. Her and Chris usually have time to discuss and make joint decisions with almost everything and apparently since they changed the curriculum for his school, Chris has been waking up super early and then working till bed to get ahead. Erin recognized that this is what it must be like with Eric working such late hours and gone most of the days. I know the life of unilateral decisions well, and am grateful for the time I have with the kids to connect and spend with them. I do wish I could somehow share all the thoughts with Eric and bring him in more, but sometimes it’s just so exhausting to rehash all the things. Not to mention he has his own daily work stresses that he internalizes and compartmentalizes also. There has to be some better way to share and make time, but for now I’m just happy we are both focusing on our sleep, health, nutrition…it’s a lot of work trying to be strong. Oh! And somehow Raylene bequeathed me with concert tickets to go see Feist at the Fillmore on my birthday next week! I’m excited to see her work in Seattle moving ahead (a little jealous of this Zoe person whom I know nothing about), but also looking forward to some long drives in the near future to help do some studio reorganizing.
FOCUS: Stay consistent…I’d say we are both doing a pretty good job showing up for ourselves every day so far. My throat is a little scratchy and I’m super low energy this afternoon (probably just allergies from walking by the Bay this morning?) but I can hear that little voice creeping in trying to convince me not to wake up at 5:30 tomorrow. Stay consistent.
INSPIRATION: Showed the kids the Tiny Desk Concert with Philip Glass’ Etude 6 & 5. Pretty intense and almost wish they could listen to it without the visual because it is so full of emotion (however the visual scene really shows the intensity of the finger dexterity and complexity of the piece). Need to show the kids more Tiny Desk…it’s good for all us to have more music in our lives.